Are you holding a grudge? About?

So, I don’t know if I am technically holding a grudge, because I did get over it. I mean, I go by the motto – Made the best decision with the knowledge I had at that time – things change, I get that. But I honestly thought I was entitled to either support to lease a vehicle or a vehicle after I left what I now realize was an abusive relationship mentally. I was too naive and trusting. I do give credit for the good things, but really, I guess I am not over it, probably could do with some therapy. But life is too short, I am in a good place now, and don’t want to ruin it with holding a grudge.