I’m trying to get my mood improved, which will hopefully translate to more energy.

This MS relapse my body is feeling, is causing a lot of negative emotions, anger, sadness, anxiety, tears to name a few. I have taken a wonderful mindfulness course a number of years ago, and I still practice and utilize the tools as needed. Well I need the whole toolbox right now.

The numbness, tingling, burning feeling is more prevalent in my right hand, and keyboarding is a real struggle time wise, and accuracy wise. So much so that I am on a medical leave to aid in recovery, and unfortunately according to the powers that be, I am not getting the job done. Even with accommodations.

Adjusting to this flare is really kicking my pants, and the deep dark hole of depression is real and I can see it just over there… so bring on the exercise – as much as I can reasonably do, turn on all the lights – cause it is February and I swear something has stolen the sun and replaced it with clouds that only deliver mountains of snow…and then there are the responsible adults – well they are supposed to be – in politics that have frankly lost their minds.

Gratitude for my Violett who works with me every second of every day.

For my friends who check in with me

For my new friends, that I want to be around to see if this snow ever ever leaves

For my grandchildren who give me cause to keep smiling

Live in the moment – I am breathing, writing this and enjoying a coffee, I have heat, hydro and a roof over my head

Exercise – I need to go get changed …